Sky Wall

I feel like, lately, life is such a super boring routine in a super unfriendly circumstances. You do the same things over and over again like a stupid robot which has been set by its maker before it works to do things repeatedly in order. And unfortunately, you don't enjoy it at all. I am extremely sick and tired. I know for sure which is referred as a need and which is referred as desire. And meeting you is completely a NEED - A GREAT ESCAPE - back then. Because you, the one I thought had a capability to lift me up and make my spirit soar, is long gone. I get so damn bored with my own life nowadays. Meeting and talking to the same persons at school or at class, also facing the same problem at home. They're entirely sucks, for many kinds of reasons. So, undoubtedly, I need another escape. so soon NOW Take me to a place, where nobody seems to be able to save me from my own happiness thingy Where there's only laugh and peacefulness so calm so quite Shhhhh.. No nee...

So you think they want to be like that? Being Imprisoned by something which stucks on their bodies for ages The thing which has been granted to them but couldn't be refused or ignored Live most of their lifes being mocked and judged, by those people who don't have such a conscience by those who always seem to build a big great wall as if they are wasted? They fucking won't But what might they do If they have such a strength I believe they could have just thrown it all away from themselves They are so weak, helpless Unable to change anything They have to bear the burden no matter what The thing is, they are still our friends God's made just like us Nobody is entirely perfect They need love as much as we do Day by day people walk by But if you consider yourself as high educated person then stop throwing shits to them Like have you ever felt the feeling of being in their position? have you ever? have you? take time and brood over we were all...

For all of my nothingness I truly realize that I am nobody I don't have either wealth or great capability like the others I try I lose I fail I fall down I cry..so many times I easily get stressed and depressed  I go thru the ups and downs but then still get shocked because I'm not accustomed yet. And yes, I am complaining too many things in life that don't run as well as my expectation Sometimes I forget to grateful And I make mistakes most of the time. I'm not perfect. But the only thing I could be proud of as just myself always has it, is the heart it might be a heart of stone but it undoubtedly works as how it is Respond something as how it supposed to the heart which you can say it sincere that has been granted from God heart to love, heart to care, heart to share and to give. So if you just look at my outward/physical appearance You might leave me Because I am nothing For most of people see what's outside Dear, someone or m...

Andai pikiranku sama dengan pikirannya, pikiranmu dan pikiran dia Tentang bagaimana seharusnya berpikir jernih Untuk menghadapi kejamnya dunia Sehingga tak perlu lagi memusingkan hidup Andai hatiku sama dengan hatinya, hatimu dan hati dia Tentang bagaimana menanggapi rasa Sehingga semua bertindak sebagaimana mestinya  Sebagai manusia yang beradab Sesuai kepekaan nurani Andai setiap insan sadar untuk hidup damai berdampingan Bukan merepotkan apalagi merugikan satu dengan yang lain Sehingga Tuhan dan alam hanya berbisik Tidak sampai menegur apalagi marah Andai saja adam dan hawa tidak makan buah terlarang Sehingga manusia hanya tau berbuat yang baik bukan yang jahat lucunya dunia sehingga seringkali kita tertawa tapi sambil meringis  Mungkin memang seharusnya semua terjadi Mungkin realitanya ditakdirkan begini adanya Tapi bolehkah kita berandai? Andai hidup ini seindah mimpi dan khayalan Bukan sepahit kenyataan

I'm officially legal now!! had the best surprise soo far! even I got sad in the beginning but then received kind of happiest thing in the ending <3 I got blast thru the best drama well kinda absurd thou (part of the surprise) played by best artists who were the people whom I loved. Can't thank God enoughhhh Those are my favorites, good friends in second grade of shs. And thiss..HAHA was happening in the midnight goddamn surprising it was so hard to believe i felt shooo effin' pleaseddd at that moment They obviously made and brighten up my day thxxxx a lottt thxx to mastermindss THANKS PEOPLE! XXXXXX

I just don't know what life brings to me. Whether those things are surprises or inescapable pain or trials or lessons.  Yang jelas, for the past few days, gue ngerasa orang-orang malah ngasih kado gue taik. But they seem to be fucking innocent. Manusia suka ngoleksi topeng ya. Munafik. Jarang yang tulus. i'd better make friends with dogs and pigs Yang kata lo hina itu. Dibilang jelek tapi masih sadar diri, dibanding lo yang cakep tapi gatau malu. Dibilang gak punya otak tapi masih bisa diajar, dibanding lo yang punya tapi bego. Dibilang gak punya hati tapi tetep setia, dibanding lo yang punya tapi dibiarin busuk. See? Shame on you. Go get a mirror and reflect yourself deh. World doesn't seem to add up lately. As yet, I feel randomly worse All things are just started going wrong all at once. And I just don't know how to react against the current. Actually, I need somebody to bring back the absence of my sanity But the fact nobody seems to understand....

I don't know why lately I often think, talk and take some conclusions based on my observation about what human emotion is really like. Or lets say it, I just started exploring about how self-centris/ egocentrism of human being works. Probably because some of my friends told me about their experiences of feelings and emotions, also some problems they are facing with nowadays. And I've been trying to be a good listener and giving such worth and best advices to them so they might feel better. Well sometimes, I feel like I'm able or fit to be a psychologist, lol.        The thing is, Aristotle said, each person is a "Zoon Politicon", means that mankind is a social being, who can't live alone without the others and need help from the others. That's true. Like, have you ever imagined  living in this world just alone and how would it be? I can definitely describe that in one word. Worst.        But have ...

Here you go, one of my favorites.. You know, the smallest thing can change your life. In the blink of an eye, something happens by chance, when you least expect it sets you on a course that you never planned into a future you never imagined. Where will it take you? That's the journey of our lives. Our search for the light. But sometimes, finding the light means you must pass through the deepest darkness. - The Lucky One

Changing the main purpose of doing something ain't that easy When there are only two options that follow ; Keep going with the new purpose that would probably won't give such a benefit (to me) but might give any to him. Or.. Decide to stop and ignoring the dignity and my good name Needless to say, just choose; Yes or no? I've been doing wrong since the beginning. I know. Especially when you have been through half process to reach the goal. And now, everything has changed into something that you least expect. Too far from desire. Too far from all that have been wanted before. The question is : Why am I  doing this kind of shit? Sorry. But I'm trapped now. Judge me self-absorbed or whatever you want. Because I know I'm wrong. And I still want to go out without leaving a trace and get the best. Oh please, I don't even care about him.